that perfect hand…

In Ocean's 11, Danny said that "the house always wins. If you play long enough, never change the stakes, then the house takes you. Unless, when that perfect hand comes along, you bet big… and then, you take the house." Here's the hand I've been dealt, sometimes it's risky and sometimes it's safe, but all the time… it's perfect. It's mine.

so much work

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Week two ended in a triumphant success. I had three evaluations, all went well. My midterm evaluation is this coming Tuesday (conveniently, yet not so, scheduled immediately after my first ‘official’ taking-over of the Social Studies 9 class). I must admit, being evaluated is exhausting. I obviously enjoy their insights and need to hear what they have to say but it’s difficult when the evaluations transcend practical strategies and insights and dip their toes into character ones. I’ve tried to change enough about myself in the last 8 months preparing me for this, it’s so difficult to be mindful of who I am (or what parts of myself) and work on those things while working on everything else. And it’s not a situation of “here’s my advice, take it or leave it”…it’s more accurately “here’s my advice, I want to see it fixed by the time I am here next week”. It’s fine and humbling but it’s exhausting.

My kids are great, I am enjoying them more and more and as I become more comfortable in my authoritative role, they respond more to me as their teacher and not so much their older sister or friend. I’ve improved on drawing some hard lines but already I feel like my patience is going deeper and stronger as well. It’s amazing how much I can handle if I’ve had a proper sleep. 🙂  I am fairly nervous about teaching Social Studies… I am doing exploration and the arrival in Canada and my own knowledge is very limited. I am hardpressed to believe that I am qualified to teach this but I’ve been saying that for a long time so maybe it’s time I just sorted it out and did it. How ’bout that? Little pep talk is always good.

Something interesting: you know teachers who have kinda funny-to-them relatable stories and anecdotes for concepts they are teaching? I wondered if I would ever reach a time when I could do that but here I am, talking about close friends and hilarious stories in effort to make the kids understand things so that’s been interesting. I find myself talking about fishing adventures or my nephew or the Olympics or anything to try to help them connect. So some of you are already famous in some way in my lectures and stories.

Another funny thing? I have a few students who are so similar to people I know it is scary. I might have even located a mini-me, which is very, very awkward. I wonder if I am “blessed” with little Luke-Georg-Darcy or Kate and Jocelyn combos just to keep me in check.

Things to keep me in mind for? Midterm evaluation… rest and focus (my mind seems to be drifting further and further away the last few days)… and confidence as I pick up my next class. Oh yea, and no more awkward situations of one of my boys without his shirt on.


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