that perfect hand…

In Ocean's 11, Danny said that "the house always wins. If you play long enough, never change the stakes, then the house takes you. Unless, when that perfect hand comes along, you bet big… and then, you take the house." Here's the hand I've been dealt, sometimes it's risky and sometimes it's safe, but all the time… it's perfect. It's mine.

i. am. blessed.


Do you have a mug of your favourite hot beverage to settle in for this one? I’ve been told updating hasn’t been my strongest point lately, so an update you will get. Especially because I have so much to say (when do I not, really?).

A week ago, I finished my third (and most likely final) summer at the RDOS. They lavished me with words of praise and encouragement and well wishes, but it was really hard. In fact, I didn’t sleep the night before. It’s hard to remember my calling and passion for what I am doing in school when I am welcomed with wide, wide open arms to that office every summer… a trend I could get all too comfortable with. Either way, it ended on a high note and I am ready to move on.

Keying into this idea that I may be sad, I flew to Camrose early the next morning for a VACATION… first time in Camrose with no homework, work, or wedding-pending. It was fabulous. Meg, Leanne, AND Dori all came out to visit me which was such a blessing. I think that sometimes as we miss people, we often cling to that emotion and not the emotion of how wonderful being WITH them, not THINKING about them, makes us feel. So I was reminded, three times over, how fantastic the company of those friends are. I could go on and on, but yea. Thank you.

The coolest part about going to Camrose, as I’ve mentioned before, is always how rejuvenating it is. I don’t know why, but there is such a calm that comes along with the security of being with Mark and Jes for a little while, especially right before the craziness of school begins again. They just moved into their brand new home so while initially it was exciting to see how they decorated and what this long-anticipated home looks like, the true excitement is how quickly they have made it home. I hope one day I can exercise the gift of hospitality the way Jes…and my mom…do, because there is nothing like snuggling into their couch with a mug of tea (it was surprisingly freezing there in comparison to Pen) and a good conversation. With family.

The week passed by in a breath, including days spent working alongside Jes at CLBI, a 25 km walk from their home in Armena into town (my feet – and bum – still have not forgiven me, I do not recommend it!), horse back riding with Amy, Jes’ sister in law, visiting, relaxing, and just taking the time to really contemplate the next few months to come. And to get a glimpse into their lives. And to be solidified in how much and why I miss Mark and Jessica when I don’t see them. Dori, Leanne, and Megan too. 🙂

I’ve decided I will be fully content if God leads me to a life in a small town on the prairies… in a word, majestic. I don’t think I will ever tire of it.

Now I am working through, though not very quickly, my ‘to-do list’ before leaving for Vancouver Island on Monday. My plan was to finish everything TONIGHT so that tomorrow I can just spend time with Mom and the kids before taking off, another good-bye I am not looking forward to. But instead of packing, I much prefer talking to you. Although, I am going to get desperate in motivation pretty quick here because I HAVE to get to Duncan for Monday evening to watch the Prison Break premiere with my Dad!

Remember when I said that I was trying to live a life of joy? It’s amazing how God recognizes that because countless times in the last few months, the blessings in my life have become so much more apparent, obvious, and consistent. Whether they are people and relationships or experiences or glimpses of the potential for my heart and life as a follower of Jesus, I don’t know – there is always something to be thankful for. Joyful in. Blessed by. And even though blessings are not always packaged in a perfect box with a bow, I am finding the greatest adventure is searching behind the obvious for even the faintest idea, the notion that God has given me even the tiniest…or the largest…thing. And either way, I am blessed beyond belief.

On my ‘to-do’ list, one of the items is “set goals”. Mark sang this while playing it to the tune of Dave Matthews ‘Crash’ and it’s been in my head ever since:

“Refiner’s fire, my heart’s one desire
is to be
set apart for You, Lord.
I choose to be
set apart for You, my Master,
ready to do Your will.”

I think that’s the one and only goal on that list right now and I think going to stay that way.

2 thoughts on “i. am. blessed.

  1. sounds like you’ve had a fitting end to your summer….and planning an appropriate beginning to the fall. An episode of Prison Break! Yikkes, Lou and I had planned to be all caught up so that we could begin with the 4th season on tv.
    Looking forward to seeing you again very soon. We missed you at our shindig yesterday.

  2. Aw Kate, great blog. I’m glad you had such a great time in Camrose and you are ready to tackle the things ahead.

    And I love that song too.

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