that perfect hand…

In Ocean's 11, Danny said that "the house always wins. If you play long enough, never change the stakes, then the house takes you. Unless, when that perfect hand comes along, you bet big… and then, you take the house." Here's the hand I've been dealt, sometimes it's risky and sometimes it's safe, but all the time… it's perfect. It's mine.

angels among us


Cheesy? Start over.

I read somewhere once that the most powerful and healthy way to look at the world is as though like we are looking through the eyes of a child.

I say, look at the eyes, the face, the body, the interactions, the whole being of a child, and that’s proof positive that there is something bigger than all of us that is creating us.

There is a frame that sits on Rutherfords’ mantle, with Makenna in it that says something like “All of God’s Grace In One Little Face” and looking at the picture, at children, who could really argue that? (I know that there is a book with that ‘quote’ as the title for it…but I have only seen it on their frame).

There are some kids that have grown extremely close to my heart in the recent past. There are three little girls that I love without knowing simply because Ashlee is my great friend Angela’s niece, Clare because she is my great friend BillieJean’s daughter, and Gabriella is my great friend Sandra’s daughter (who I hate that has turned one before I’ve gotten to meet her!). And I think most of you know the other four.

When I see pictures like these, or interact with them, or even just know there are some coming around the corner (BillieJean!), there is a part of my heart that stirs in a way that makes me believe this: I started out that wide-eyed, innocent, smooth skinned, honest, cute, untainted, bold, matter-of-fact, brilliant, spirited, and brave. Why not try to do so all over again?

Not just see the world through the eyes of a child, but live as such, that I am a child, of God, myself. I need that wonder and awe and excitement at taking a first step or discovering something new…whether it’s as small as a cactus that is [potentially] going to bloom soon or as large as a dream come true. Though it’s still jaded and experienced and rough, my life is a work of God’s hand, and His art, and that is something to appreciate with the rare genuineness and bravery and intelligence that ripples in waves from these children that I love, love, love so much.

I don’t want to be a kid again, but I want to understand how they look at the world so I can have the same reverence to my own life and faith.

[And I am sure going to miss the kidlets on V.Isl. a heck of a lot in the next four months! Even though I know she is gifted and talented beyond measure, can you please not encourage Makenna to walk until I am back? :)]

Not many words to describe, to be honest:





Logan, Connor, and teeny tiny [hard-to-believe-it’s] Makenna

And if you can believe it, that’s mini-ME! Who wouldn’t wanna be that all over again?

7 thoughts on “angels among us

  1. Ashlee’s eyes are HUGE.
    Amazing pictures!

  2. Oh my, the gifts treasures and wealth of love that we receive from our ‘Papa’ when we open our hearts to these little ones!! My heart sings….Thank you, thank you a thousand times thank you.
    And Kate (mini me), you were then already the treasure you are today.
    xoxox aM
    PS: we’ll be missing you too!

  3. Beautiful Kate. I think it’s sooo important to remember that we are children of God – and that his heart beats for us and longs for us – many times more than we possibly can love these darling kids. Children are so precious – and our God loves us as much as he does these little ones.

  4. They are (A’s eyes), aren’t they? She looks just like her auntie — gorgeous!

    I just honestly believe that we need the vulnerability of a child who doesn’t know anything yet, to be susceptible and absorbent to ALL of God’s work… whether it be answering a minor prayer or reading the Bible or looking at the natural things around us (or even unnatural)…and the safest way to justify that vulnerability is claiming that childlike innocence…

    …realizing that we are blessed beyond measure.

  5. You could have named Clare. I would have been flattered!

    This was a really great post Kate, really great.

  6. Cute kiddos. We can learn so much from them. We will try to hold Makenna off until September. I don’t want my baby walking too early!! She’s still a long way off.

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