See that one of me winking? Yea, some guy in my grad class told me I should never wink at people because it looks like my face is having a seizure. And the one of me upside down? Basically just a metaphor for how not-upright I feel about my lack of controlled facial expressions I feel. The very first expression there, that one I was making at the computer at work today… until I noticed my boss, supervisor, and the receptionist staring at me blankly and then asking “uhh is everything ok?” Should I lie and say yes?
Then there’s the “I am curious (also interpreted as the ‘I am up to no good’)” and “You’re not at all funny, I can’t even pretend to laugh but this smirk might satisfy you” expressions. See that’s the problem, I can’t fak my faces, they just happen. It sucks. If I eat bad food and the cook asks me if it’s ok… I can nod and say “yes I love it” but my expression reads “I need to find a bathroom RIGHT NOW.” I just want to apologize, I think there is a short circuit from my brain to my face. I just can’t control it, ya know?
It just sucks sometimes — having a weird face.