that perfect hand…

In Ocean's 11, Danny said that "the house always wins. If you play long enough, never change the stakes, then the house takes you. Unless, when that perfect hand comes along, you bet big… and then, you take the house." Here's the hand I've been dealt, sometimes it's risky and sometimes it's safe, but all the time… it's perfect. It's mine.

i passed my drivers test…


… and other musings.

The yesterday-today-tomorrow mindset…do you ever find yourself caught in a whirlwind, with nothing to hold onto? Like in the movie,Twister, when the HUGE tornado is coming and the two characters strap themselves with leather belts onto a bar that is buried deep into the ground in order to not be lost up in the storm.

Consider this: if there were three bars to choose from, and you have ENOUGH time to make the decisions, which bar would you go for?

That first one… you’ve actually past it already. The yesterday choice. It is there that you see what was… the place where decisions sit decided, dreams remain still yet to come true, and promises made have been kept or forgotten. So many things surround it… the beginning of life, where you made your initial mistakes and scored some winning points; an accountability of all your firsts The metal has been weathered by the passing of time… so much that you know if you try holding onto it for much longer, the smooth and worn down surface will cause your hands to lose grip and slide off…

You take a step to the next one but your eye catches as the sun glistens off the one even farther away. Tomorrow… your future. The pole is brand new, nothing has touched it or tainted it in any way. You must decide whether to put all of your strength and energy into something that might be so unreal that it truly doesnt exist… will you strap yourself on where you cannot predict how well you will be able to keep holding onto it? It has yet to be experienced… so new you can see a reflection of possibility, change, mistakes, perseverence, and things you never dreamed could be yours. But would you really want to stand there and stare into its shiny surface for so long that you forget to grab onto it… and the other moments pass you by?

Not even noticing, you’re resting on the middle post. The bar not shiny or smooth. Just sort of in between. In the wind it tends to sway and in the sun it gets very hot. You certainly don’t know if you can trust it to hold you, as it is slightly unstable and offers no guarantees. This is today. It’s not wishing for the future or desiring what was. It’s ONLY making promises you intend to keep. It’s actually having a dream. It’s making mistakes but having nothing to worry about. It’s not holding a grudge. It’s making a friend and keeping him there. It’s DEFINITELY not being angry. It’s making the decision to be only YOU and loving every minute of it. It’s taking a chance on things that you are completely unsure of. It’s a risk. And it’s what makes today.

What bar would you choose? Could you trust another person to make the decision for you? Would you decide to even raise the bar even HIGHER… far out of your reach, because you’re not going to hang onto anything; instead, let this life just carry you away?

2 thoughts on “i passed my drivers test…

  1. wow kate, your posts always make me think…thanks 🙂 I enjoy reading your blog a lot.

  2. I have no idea at the moment. I have one kid in the bath, one kid showing me his new jammies (that I made)and talking in my ear and I’m seriously sleep deprived! Could I take all the sleep deprivation time from the past and use it in the future to hold me together??! haha

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