that perfect hand…

In Ocean's 11, Danny said that "the house always wins. If you play long enough, never change the stakes, then the house takes you. Unless, when that perfect hand comes along, you bet big… and then, you take the house." Here's the hand I've been dealt, sometimes it's risky and sometimes it's safe, but all the time… it's perfect. It's mine.

moment of weakness


When I came to Calgary the first time, I was soooo excited about moving out, living in residence, and then starting school. But when we first rolled into “Cow-town” as people affectionately seem to call it, I cried. I cried and cried before I saw the school, I cried more when I saw it to a point that Dad and I checked into a hotel before actually moving in. All of a sudden, I didn’t know what to do, why I was doing this, where I was supposed to go… I was fully, completely, illusionarily (if that’s a word) unprepared. You know what my dad said?

“Well Kate, this just proves you can’t be a hero all the time. It’s ok.” and he was right. (I mean, he always is!)

So I have learnt to rather than just keep my head up and never admit to fear or instability, I might as well face it head on. Or share it. And that’s what I am doing… in the next 10 days, I have 4 major term papers due and I don’t have enough time to breathe, let alone prepare for them (and hand in something decent) and I can’t NOT work this month because I need to make rent. That and I have three finals and one more philosophy quiz (which seems to be worse than the finals). So to say I am stressed out might be an understatement, I even CRIED!

In other words, I covet your prayers (as always!!) in the next three weeks, because I am tryin’ to be a hero and I just can’t be this time, Dad!


8 thoughts on “moment of weakness

  1. Hey Kate,
    Just wanted to let you know I read your blog quite regularily and this one hit me hard – I’m in the exact same boat… right down to the 4 term papers in 10 days bit. I’ve cried too, more than once. But I think we can do it. The end’s not far from sight. “It is our attitude at the beginning of a difficult undertaking which, more than anything else, will determine its successful outcome.” Go get ’em Kate!

  2. Realllly you read it? That’s sweet… I like to know I am reaching a wider audience. ;).

    Thanks for that quote… I guess it’s just a matter of knowing that it HAS to get done anyways…then home!

  3. I don’t have any nice quotes, but I do know that you can do it. Even if you’re in Camrose… Because family and Easter is important. Anything I can do to make it easier, let me know!!! I’ll be your cheerleader

  4. me quotes..but…

    ill be thinkin of can do it! one day at a time..

  5. I have a quote, but i’m not sure if it works well in your situation. “People who leave things until the last second only need one second to finish them”
    Umm, yeah. Probably not sound advice. You’ll get through this though, don’t worry too much. Best of luck.


  6. .wowzers Kate, i told nick last night, as i cried on his shoulder, literally, that one of my biggest fears is feeling/ being weak. (also why i hate crying) It was so great to hear your wisdom on that. and your understanding that its ok ‘not to be a hero all the time.’ And how crying can be so healing.
    That same day a friend of mine has written me an ecouragement card, out of the blue, and i want to share the verse she wrote for me…” He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.” (Isaiah 40:29)
    How true this is, Christ provides for us, for what we need, when we need it.
    All the best on your writing and tests!!

  7. and to all of you…. except Brian (I want to kick myself every time I read your comments on my blog… I laugh so hard…maybe cause I know you and that you’re secretly scared of me…j/k)…. but good luck yourselves…. 🙂 Thanks for the verse Megs, loved it.


  8. HUGS and PRAYERS!!

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